Unlikely new year's resolution.

Hi blog, it's me again. Here. Again. Amazing, isn't it..How it always comes back to the same square, named One.

It's been since so many years, but now I will officially name this blog my sad blog, as it's where I go to write whatever feelings that I have been keeping inside, which is normally sad, if it's hidden. Perhaps it's something like my virtual bolster. *hugs tight*

Sometimes I wonder if I will mess up my life.

People always say what we do now affects our future. I wonder how my future will be like.

I wonder if the decisions I make sometimes are out of pride..something that I always say just plain ruins relationships, any kind.

And I wonder sometimes if I could be better, then maybe I won't ruin so many things. Wouldn't always make people angry. Wouldn't make people feel awkward.

And I wonder sometimes, if I could live without prejudice, without judging, without preconceptions, and with more love, more understanding, and more objectivity.

I wish I could be truly fair. And I'm not talking about my skin colour.

But I wish I wouldn't keep scores.

Scores of those who embarrassed me, who spoke a harsh word to me, who laughed at me, who scolded me mercilessly, who hurt me unknowingly.

I wish I can always understand where people are coming from as they talk, and not make my own judgements.

..and sometimes, I'd wish to be the me I was in high school. So do you, so do you.